I DID IT… I ACTUALLY DID IT!!! And boy what a rollercoaster it’s been. I cannot stress how much this year has changed my life… potentially for the better. University has transformed me into a woman. Yes I know that sounds cliche, but honestly, it has. I have learnt an incredible amount, not just through my course, but by communicating and interacting with new people, especially in a town that I have never been to before. It has definitely been an experience that I will remember for a very long time.
For those of you who do not know anything about me and what I am studying, I shall inform you now. I am studying Education Studies and Drama at the University of Winchester; hoping to pursue my career as a Secondary School Drama Teacher. The course that I am studying is incredible and I recommend it to anyone who is interested in teaching and/or performing. It is a highly recognisable university that is known for its Education Studies and Primary Education facilities. I have loved everything that I have done throughout the year in regards to my course and now thinking about it I feel rather silly for doubting myself this time last year. University is hard! I wouldn’t lie to you about that, but I do think that people aren’t aware of their capabilities and have a lot of self-doubts. I believe that with a lot of motivation and commitment anyone can do a university course if they put their mind to it. I understand that university isn’t for everyone and for some jobs you don’t need a degree. However, I think that if people want to get the university experience, then they shouldn’t doubt themselves because it doesn’t matter if you fail… at least you gave it a try. A good quote that I like to use is: ‘You’ll never know unless you try’ and that’s exactly what I did and I have never been happier with my decision.
Prior to attending university in September 2017, I was petrified and very anxious about leaving home and moving to a new town where I wouldn’t know anyone. I really did not believe in myself which is why I deferred my place for a year. In a way, I am glad and sad about the decision I made purely because I think that has affected me this year. I liked having a gap year as I was able to work and save a little bit of money which is always a good idea because that’s when you soon realise things in this world surely are expensive. During my gap year, I was able to think about myself and what I wanted… more importantly, what I want to achieve in life. It was difficult for me to decide what I wanted to study because I kept changing my mind. At times I would consider doing journalism and photography or nursing, as well as teaching. It didn’t take me long to realise that teaching is what I should do as I really enjoy being a part of something, like a project and I am very passionate about how drama and performance can be used in an educational perspective. I think it is an interesting way to talk about specific topics and to share them with others. I knew from this that I had to go to university to be a teacher because legally I need to have a degree! I hate regretting things, so I wouldn’t say that I regret having a gap year…I like to think of regrets as a learning curve and I think that deferring for a year helped me to grow up as a person in becoming as independent as I possibly can.
I did struggle at times with the amount of workload I would receive from my courses and the expectations of essays that I had to submit. Due to having a gap year, I felt like I was lacking in areas of my writing and academic skills needed for my essays to earn a solid grade. Of course, I would be a worrier and not believe in myself at all that I always thought the work I handed in was awful. I would spend weeks stressing about what grades I would receive which is silly because it makes you not enjoy the present. I wish I never worried about my grades because deep down I knew I gave every essay and piece of work my 100% that I told myself I would be happy with any grade that I got. At the start of the year I was aiming for a 3rd… bit low some people would say, but for me, this was an achievement. Being a student at Winchester means a lot to me! I will never take this opportunity for granted. When I get set an assignment, I start straight away and I spend as much time as possible on it to ensure that I get the best grade I possibly can. I was never the smartest person in high school and my grades were pretty average which is why I doubt myself a lot. Strangely, being at university I have improved enormously on my writing and academic skills. Every piece of work I have submitted has received a grade in the 2:1 range which is overwhelming. I think what I am trying to get across is that people like me who think similar to myself shouldn’t worry or listen to what people say about them and their capabilities. If you honestly want something so bad, you can achieve that. There are so many different access courses now which help pupils and I support it wholeheartedly.
I am very proud of myself, even if people still doubt me because if I never went to university which could have happened as I kept not wanting to go, then I would probably still be working in Peacocks back in my hometown. It probably comes across like I hated it, but throughout my life, I always felt like I didn’t belong there… like I didn’t fit in. It is so strange and I feel like I can’t explain it to anyone, but even just having the courage to move to Winchester has changed my life. I absolutely love living in Winchester. I haven’t even been here for a year and I love it! It is a beautiful city and I genuinely feel like I belong here. Personally, if university failed me and I had to just work, I would 100% still live in Winchester.
You might be thinking “so what are you doing now?” Well, currently I am working as much as I can to pay for the rent on my new flat and the bills which are needed with that. I have two jobs which are both part-time. One is in a care home and the other is at Jack Wills. I absolutely love working in my spare time as it is a good opportunity for me to meet new people and make new friends. Living in Winchester can be expensive, especially as I have to pay for everything, but I love living here so much that I don’t really care. Now that my partner, Kevin has moved with me to Winchester I am so happy with everything. In regards to university and my course, I am awaiting one last result from the exam that I took two months ago. There was a little rumour that anyone who failed would have had an email by now with the date to retake the exam… luckily I haven’t had that email, so I am hoping I have passed. I have about 5 books that I need to purchase and read for when I start back in September…other than that I am just waiting until I start again. I am looking forward to going back to university as I really enjoyed studying my courses and learning about new things.
If you have any questions about the university or university in general, I would love for you to get in contact with me by either commenting below, emailing or on my social media. I would love to help you out and point you in the right direction with any information that you need to know. Thank you so much for popping onto my blog and reading this post. If you liked it please give it a little like and drop me a bit of feedback at the bottom. It means a lot to me and I love hearing what you have to say. I hope you have a lovely day and a great weekend!
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